its so werid to look back on this things..
so many things have changed...
some good..
some bad...
you never know where life takes you..

i think i am seriously in love with this boy..
no lie this time..
everything feels so right..

i leave in less than a month..
i am kinda getting scared now..
what about if i make no friends..
what am i going to do...

So i am leaving tomorrow..
I am going to Florida..
I get to go with one of my best friends and her family..
We get to go to Disney world..
I am missing two days of school..
I am prob going to get sunburned..
I am going to miss everyone a lot..
You all better call me..
I love you all very much..

I think i like this boy..:)

Peace out Michigan..
I will be gone Feb 21st-Feb 28th!!!

I am soo stoked!!!!!

So before I went to bed last night I found all these old notes, from like 8th and 9th grade, that people have written me... most of them make me sad.. because like they talked about how we are going to like have a sleepover with n*.. and now we don't even hang out with each other anymore.. it like we are never all 4 us... like it use to be... it makes me sad.. because we were all so close to each other.. and now like only some of us are close.. and there is like/ was soo much drama... then I found some other notes from people that I don't even talk to anymore.. it just seem like some people went their separate ways.. some for the good and some for the bad.. don't get me wrong.. I like how things are going right now... but sometimes.. I wish some friendships were still close like they use to be..I also found some old pics that made me laugh and sad.. ( the old days' )

but yea that all for now..

i still can't believe how much you can miss someone and not even know it.. i mean you haven't seen someone all summer... and then you see them and its like you never left.. and then like the weekend comes and you miss them a lot.. I can't believe how stupid I am..

Here is what my real schedule!!!.....
1 Us Govt. ~ Karl
2 Bio 2 ~ Bigelow
3 Journalism 2 ~ Pantano
4 Lunch
5 Yearbook ~ Moore
6 Algebra 2 ~ Bower
7 English 11 ~ Mcvay
8 Spanish 2 ~ Brackx

Tell me if you are in any my classes... if not make it a point to see me in the hallways..
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kinda don't want school to start but I kinda do

Guess What.......
I am Leaving again tomorrow... I am going to Florida... I am going with my moms friends from NY and their kids... And I also get to hang out with Erika :D.... Can't wait.. I miss that girl.... I didn't get to see all the people I wanted to see before I leave... But oh well what am I going to do...Thats all for now kiddies... call me tons while I am in FL... you should know my cell... if not it is (586) 419-7883.... call whenever...well love ya all lots....leave some nice comments for me to come home too...

I am going to miss you... 7 days thats a long time... loves yous..

~I am feeling kinda of distant from you now a days... I though that before we made a promise/pack that we would never let a boy get between us... but you are soo totally breaking that promise... and it hurts... I don't want to loose you as a friend... but that is how I am feeling... I love you but if things are going to keep on going like this... I really don't know.... I want us to have fun times.. like we use too... remember all of our great memories.... I am missing my bff... I really don't get it... I am really hurt by all of this... We are suppose to be there for one another but I can't be there for you when you blow me off to be with him... I mean I don't have a problem with you being with him.... but just not every fucking minute of our lives...what are you going to do when he isn't there anymore sweetheart???? you need to figure this out on your own... and if you don't see how i am feeling.. then you are really not there for me anymores.. this is from june 8th
~ I can't believe you don't get a hint... don't call me a Fucken asshole on the phone when I was calling you to let you know to turn in your job stuff.. How the fuck should I know that you were at the movies... I feel that are friendship means nothing to you... I though a guy was never suppose to break up our friend ship... I feel like I am nothing to you... just to let you know... this time I won't let this pass right by us... what are you going to do when he leaves.... You can't come crawling back to me when you treat me like this... IDK about our friendship anymore.... this is from june 12th
I made this entry public because maybe you will read this and understand how i am feeling... some of this might sound mean to you...but put yourself in my shoes... how would you feel... seriously.... i hope you understand this... but you prob.. dont.... and you prob.. think that is like a plot against you.. but it is just how i am feeling by the way you are treating me.....think about.....

Idk anymore.. and I am getting to the point where I really don't care anymore.... you can go have your fun... but don't come crying to me when something bad happens and expect me to be there for you... I will never forget this....

Its all up to you

tonight was fun.... thanks to everyone who came!!! I love you all very much...thanks also for my gifts..The show was also fun.... but at some points it wasn't but I am not going to get into that.... the drive home was fun.. poor heather's car got lotion all over it... but doesn't worry we cleaned it... even if kyle like did all of it lol. fun times.... i love you all.

I also had fun waiting for my surprise party to start... lol lindsay

Over all my party turned out not to be that bad...actually it was really great... but at some points during the show i was upset.. but the end of the night made up for it..;)

party at my house on wednesday for my real birthday

I deiced that I am going have my Live Journal Friends only!!!



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